Monday, December 05, 2005

Finally Finals...

I am done with classes... now all I have to tackle is finals! Ha, that is a little daunting I must say... I'm kinda scared, but only for a few classes. I wish I could just skip finals and go home. Oh well, such is life. Tomorrow and Wednesday are dead days then Thursday I have a final from 4:30-6:30 and have to work from 7-11 and Friday I have two finals, one from 2:15-4:15 and one from 4:30-6:30 and work from 7-9... then I have a final on Saturday from 9-11 and a final on Monday from 9-11 and I'm done! YUCK!! I got a "survival kit" for finals from my family today... I love you, Mommy (and the rest of you who get credit probably without even knowing it ;-) ). I think it is pretty much hilarious that the only thing they think we need to survive finals is a ton of junk food. But, I'm not gonna complain. This weekend was interesting... Mabel went off and left me all by myself, it was kind of sad, but God definitely worked in my life through some time with just Him... Friday I had a test and a final and then I worked on my paper for my Lit class for several hours and went and talked to my professor about it. We had our first choir concert that night and then I came back and watched a movie and went to bed. Saturday, I spent a lot of time with Jesus. I read a lot more of Captivating... and am growing more and more obsessed with that book. I think something that God has majorly been showing me is that I have often mistaken what it means to guard my heart. Preoccupied with being hurt, often I don't open up enough to allow others to see the real me and experience the freedom of that. I'm not sure if that made any sense to anyone but me, but oh well. For those of you who have read the book, you probably know what I am talking about. Letting God reveal to me His plans and accepting that His ways are higher than my ways has also been a really cool thing for me recently. Like this weekend, I found out I didn't get the job I was hoping for, I didn't get the grade I wanted on a test I studied forever for, I had to miss a lot of the Christmas stuff at Baylor for my concerts.... just little disappointments that I realized there had kind of been a lot of, but I was okay... I had been praying that God would shape my attitude so that I would recognize that I don't know His plans and I don't have to fret when my plans don't work out, because His plans are better anyway, and well, He answers prayers. I know that He has a plan and it's better than anything I could ever come up with. I could go on forever about what God is teaching me... but as I said, it would take forever, but oooo... I'll leave you with this really cool song that we sang in Chapel like a month ago... go figure it's a Shane and Shane song (I didn't know that when we sang it)... I love it ... maybe it will encourage you somehow...


Holy design
This place in time
That I might seek and find my God

Lord, I want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion over You
And only You
Lord, I want to yearn for you
I want to burn with passion over You
And only You
Lord, I want to yearn

Your joy is mine
Yet why am I fine
With all my singing and bringing grain
In light of Him

Lord, I want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion over You
And only You
Lord, I want to yearn for you
I want to burn with passion over You
And only You
Lord, I want to yearn

Oh You give life and breath
In You we live and move
That's why I sing

Lord, I want to yearn for You
I want to burn with passion over You
And only You
Lord, I want to yearn for you
I want to burn with passion over You
And only You
Lord, I want to yearn

~"Yearn" by Shane and Shane

4 comments:

jess said...

Very cool song. I'll pray that you do well on your finals.

Anonymous said...

aww i'm sorry for leavin u!! itz so awesome that u got to spend more time w/ God, tho...i'm such a distraction =( n yah, u definately take the disappointments (the lil things) better than i do...i'm workin on it...wonder when God's gonna be done teachin me that lesson...prolly never, eh? ah well...each day's a learning process...we don't have to be perfect, as long as we're climbin/trying...so yahh...ur sittin like 5 ft away from me headbangin to the TRANSIBERIAN ORCHESTRA, so i'll stop!! love ya much =) *muahz*

Lori said...

My dear sweet Tessie, I miss you. but, you'll be here soon and all will be right with the world. I saw my handsome for the first time on Wednesday night and that was good. Went to lunch with him and the girlfriend today--Chick fil A :o) and saw Gaby...so, yeah, working on being all here...and your prayers are very much appreciated. know that you are in mine too :o) Oh, and Veronic is reading Captivating right now and she is going to let Amberly and I borrow it when she is done...I can't wait :o)

Hugs,
me

James Morrow, Secretary General of United Nations said...

Paul your such a dork.. but i am too so its ok. lol ;-)