I think that I have avoided blogging for a while because I have had entirely too much to say. And when you say too much, few listen. So much has happened and yet I've had plenty of time to post something, I just havent, because it wouldn't be good enough to convey all of what I have experienced. God has been rocking my world lately. Really rocking my world...
So that's the draft of a post that I started on June 13th.... guess I've just continued to be overwhelmed with all that I could say. My summer has been a rollercoaster of events and emotions thus far... not to mention I feel like I just stepped onto the ride and yet I can already see the end of the track. Being home as much as I have been has truly been a blessing. I've realized all over again why it was so hard for me to go away to school, and why it will continue to be hard. I don't let go very easily. There are so many people here that are incredibly important to me, and so many opportunities that seem to jump out at me all the time. I have a network here... and a pretty extensive one at that. I came home and jumped right back into ministry at Northwoods... singing in Adult Choir, singing on praise team, working with youth when I'm in town... I nearly immediately had people calling me for babysitting jobs, people wanting to hang out, running errands for my mother, doing favors for friends. It's crazy. It scares me that this may be the last summer that I'm home ever again, but I won't deny that it is a large possibility. It breaks my heart in some ways, but it also shows me that God has plans for me beyond what I can see right now. He is faithful, and He will provide for all of you... and for me. You know, it is often so much easier to trust God with the problems of others than it is to trust Him with your own problems. I want my faith to grow to truly trust God with anything. Right now, it's trusting Him with my financial situation. I'm beyond broke. I think money is just an area of life that I'm learning about the hard way.... I don't like learning the hard way. But, I do want to learn. God is showing me that He is faithful and He will provide for my needs, but I have to understand that He is not one to squeeze Himself into my agenda, He's there for me to hand over my agenda and say, "It's Your's, do what You will with it." Well, I think I've said too much already... I have a tendency to do that. But, I want you to know that God is faithful and He is able. "My God shall supply all my needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus." ~Philippians 4:19 Amen?
